Dimples and Iron.

It’s funny, the Opera world fascinates me. Like any other Venue we take ourselves so seriously.

Certain protocols are followed, music is memorized and then sung with “Passion” but precise calculation. I think sometimes it’s taken so seriously that the momentum of what we are performers, artists, directors,  make – up artists are taking part in is lost.

There are a lot of rules I will follow and changes I will make to further my art. I will sleep on a floor to audition for something where I think I have a chance to be part of something fantastic. I will wait in line, and work hours on end to bring something life on the stage. I will however not play this “ negative”  ridiculous game of power trips with myself or any other Musician. I will not lose my Jeness.  In this I will not lose my faith in God. I am going to sing, thank my lucky stars I have gotten this far and keep putting opportunities out to the universe with the mentality “ Maybe, just maybe.” Vs. there is no way I have what they want. I will not prove myself to Musicians who plan to abandon me but to the Music a much more powerful identity than any man could ever be. I will sing only what feels right, what can benefit me) vs. what’s convenient. I will do everything on this journey to my best ability and that will always be enough.

 I will make time to vent and cry. I will be curious and touch things even if I’m told I may not have them. I will laugh and enjoy every moment I can. When I am with my support system and team I will use their services in a mature fashion and let that be the time I reevaluate, replan and let myself rejuvenate.  That being said, if it kills me I will treat every Musician, artist, and anyone else I come in contact with on my journey with respect and kindness. Even if they do not show me the same. I will not make idle conversation out of gossip. I will remember my purpose and as my dearest friend in the world told me) this art found me. I love you God, it won’t be easy but I’ll keep my rainbows and my art blanketed by the softness of my lords cheek I will  sing with abandon.